Its only the beginning of Ramadhan and there's so many

 challenges and obsticles to go through. 

May Allah blessed us with every downfall he gave us. 

May there be a greater success ahead of us.

May we remain calm and go through this with no complaints. 

In Shaa Allah ader hikmah disebalik sume nie :/

Emotionally and mentally fucked up . i guess my trust issues get a hold of me. you know i never imagine myself to be like this.  sucks to know how i ruin your day with my messed up thoughts and maybe my actions too. Its never easy when you have to serve the nation and I'm here waiting. even before this i have to wait just to even talk to you. NS is never the reason. I am. I'm the kind of girl who need and wants your attention but i've never been getting it nowadays. that is maybe the reason why I'm always flaring up and argues with you. well i dont know. sometimes i think its not fair. everything's not fair. i just want my time with you. everytime we have those times its always being filled up with other things than for both of us. you always falls asleep so easily now.it tires me to see how tired you are. everynight i hold on to my tears only because you assure me that things will get better soon. I'm wondering when is that 'soon' will come. for all i know you're always missing. i dont know how to explain this feeling with words or actions so i rather just keep it to myself because whatever it is no matter how badly i want things to change it'll just never happen. I'll just have to keep on waiting and waiting. i'm trying my best not to hope for anything but i'm always hoping and my hopes always falls down to the ground. always. life's a shit and things happen for a reason. i'm still here enduring because i'm holding on to what's mine.

I'm not perfect no one is face it.

Heartbeat

Ala tayang tayang! tite tayang ayie otey ? HAHAHA!

After all the bullshits i go through all this years i finally found you. Why it takes you so long to find me ha?! In Shaa Allah he'll be the last cause there aint any better than him . His the type of guy who tolerates my stupid nonsense, fulfill my cravings, never failed to surprise me, the kind of guy who can shut me up during an arguement, shower me with unlimited supply of hugs and forehead kiss *kelipkelipmate* , his the kind of guy who will try his very best to adapt being with me and heal my broken heart. The kind of guy where my parents are able to pass down their responsibilities to. His the kind of guy that i can trust.  I hate myself for not knowing you years before this but I love the fact that we take things slow and we never give up. Even if there was a time where things turned out to be what it wasnt supposed to. Without us realising we're reaching our 7th soon. Despite cursing each other and giving shits we pulled it through. 

the kind of guy i can call MINE 

Test Test 1 2 3 !

I'm left with afew days to my final exam and im here blogging after so long hahahaha!

I lost my focus coz its been ages since i have time for my own and it felt so good that i

totally pushed aside what i have to do. Blogging used to be my daily routine till i forgot 

how to use it HAHAHA! :')

I guess i should really go and

 do my revision now :D

Life has been rather challenging . theres just too many things thats going on in my mind . pfffft !  i just want to cry my heart out right now . how i wish that every single tear drop solves everything . fat hope la az ! im fixing my broken heart thanks to him . uhuh . i couldnt explain how much i have to go thru and its only the 2nd mth of the whole entire 2012 . dayuummm ! but im so greatful that i have my family , lovelies & him always by my side hearing me out . thank you so much . im stuck . not knowing what else to do . eeeeeeee! emosi terganggu please . pffft ! stress nye dengan hidup . aru tanggung diri sendiri sia belum tanggung hal rumah tangge biler da dewase haiyaaaaaaa ! hidup nie bynk sgt cabaran . sblm emosi making terganggu nk stop je la ehk . baik da start bbual sorg pulak -.- . hahahaha az emosi terganggu da sewel da budak nie hahahahaha okay .  adios amigos, amigas :)